The Story

While we are focused on keeping ourselves afloat, it is easy to miss the hold that work can take on our lives.

Only five years ago, I was starting my career as a construction engineer. The companies I have experienced like to run their teams lean; although the individuals end up with a high work load, it also means there is more room for upwards mobility. The turnover was high in what seemed like a "trial by fire" work environment. It was easy to become consumed by the work. And with just enough pay rises and promotions, it was easy to feel like I was winning, but in hindsight, I was not winning. 

In the beginning, it was 6am starts, 10pm finishes, on a graduate salary, with no overtime compensation. Working away from family and friends, always missing the moments that matter. Eventually, a feeling of loneliness would loom over me any moment my mind was not consumed by work... or exercise... or "productive tasks". Over the years, the demand on hours settled somewhat, but the responsibilities grew. Any hours I had taken back for myself were spent thinking more intensely about work - the problems of the day, the solutions of tomorrow.    

In summary, it is easy to give all your time and attention to work. You can give so much of yourself to a company. Going the extra mile for your workmates can fill you with a sense of completeness. Being the "go-to" person, and being exceptional in the eyes of your colleagues can feel good. But remember, everyone will sing your praises so long as you make their lives easier. Many people are quick to forget you when you no longer serve their purpose. 

So, I eventually learnt that I needed to focus more on what makes me feel grounded. What makes me breathe a little bit deeper, and what holds my gaze just a little bit longer. Discovering the outdoors is a learning process - sometimes intimidating, always fun. Here is the journey so far...